my bad few days this week

i decide to add more about me than just the ghost or spirits stuff it’s been hard sence i lost my husband i got to thinking maybe this could also help me to cope with all that is going on around me well this week started ok but soon went bad sadly it sarted good then as i was taking my nape normaly i put kira on the bus and as she is getting ready for school do my chores and i do some chores before bed as well so after she gets on the bus it’s me time so i take a nape well like i said i was napeing and i get a call it’s the school u got to come get kira she is in trouble again she has hurt 56 kids in 4 days of school this week she is to come home now and not be back till fri she is supended from school at six years old i’ m just livied now ok i will try and get some one to come and get her that is hard cause i can not drive yet they got to teach me this spring or summer then i got to get my licence then a car so it will be a while so i depend on others to help with ride for now and most are working at this time but i finely find someone to go get her and bring her home she is gronded and i have a dr. apont the next day that mean i had to take her with me well caresorse takes me and her to the dr. i get out at about 11ish and we wait till about 2 for the ride yeah a kid with adhd board in a cold hall waiting that long for a ride she wasn’t to bad but i was starting to get low blood sugar by now and worrying about passing out and when they finely came we had to stop and drop someone off at there drs. first before going home and urbana is the backwards way home yeah so by now i’m shaking scarring kira so we get home let the dog out take coats off keys up stuff away and i get a sugar reading fast and make dinner cause it is to late for lunch we mist it and my sugar was very low like 80 to 90 ish i was so shakey while making dinner but we thanks to the lord through the day oh yeah and this guy in the car was cussing about being late and i was thinking oh yeah u didn’t wait like i and kira did he was cussing the driver and he told him quite it or he would let him out then when he got out his pants droped to his crack or thats what kira said cause i could see where this was going and turned my head fast and as i was doing this i was thinking oh god please let kira not say anything like i see your butt she would do that she just looked at me with shock lol prayer awsnerd thanks because i was thinking if she says somethng and he cusses her out i will be like well pull up your pants or get a belt don’t talk to my kid like that and u don’t be rude we don’t talk like that to strangers but thankfuly she seemed to know that but say sometime just what they are thinking out loud and i was worred she would lol. i see your butt lol


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my drop down into hell and back out again part 2 the spirit encounter

well that night he was being tested for him being brain dead so they can pull the pulgs on him i get the call that we are to come back he is brain dead and they have pulled the plugs at this same time just before i call my sister to come over and get me and kira they hear while watching tv and they hear it over the tv let go let go twice when i call they new i was going to call and told me what happend we think he was saying the let me go the next few days he was very visual and vocal one day my sister was out in the garage looking for a table or something to use to put a tv on for my daughter in her room we had started to clean out the house and start the remadle and she saw a little table out there thinking to herself thats a nice table in her head at that moment she heard a male voice say i made that ok she brings the table in i start to cry about to tell her that he made that table and she says before i can say anything he made this didn’t he i say with mouth hanging open yes how did u know that he told me and she told me what happend in the garage then another day i was making dinner for me and kira had been very sad crying every night not sleeping much feeling like did he even love us to do this and like i said i was making dinner turned to put food in the microwave and he was sitting in the chair nearest my daughter at the table slightly with his head down kinda see through i just blink in shock to see him i think he knew i saw him and bleeped out i just said hi hun we love u kira looks at me like what who are u talking to i told her and she said hi dad love u latter that same night again not sleeping now it was a cold night heat was on no windows open i feel a light breeze go over my hand on kira we sleept together the first few month neather wanting to be alone the breeze movieing over that hand to the other side of me and over my face i’m thinking and looking for the cause and then it hits me it kinda feels like a hug for me and kira and a kiss as well for me then it just stoped like it had never been there i just cryed in joy thinking he is telling me i do still love u both then one day just before my sister was to go back to work she was over working on getting rid of our living room boarder trim so we could pant the room and she was also on her cell talking to her husband and talking to me to i was sitting in a chair in the living room kira in her bedroom i saw her jump and gasp a bit cause she was on a ladder at the time she says oh my u scared me don’t do that please looks at me and ponts to waite i will tell u in a bit cause i was looking at her like what what is freeking u out to say that she stops talking to her husband and tells me that she saw my husband by the hall edge and the edge of the living room peeking up at her watching or looking at what she is doing like he just wonderd what she was doing watching the remodle going on and when he new she saw him blepped out again i thinking just cause we can’t see him didn’t mean he was gone so i say hi hun what do u think so far and love u so far that has been all we have heard or saw but i still think he is here watching over us

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my drop down into hell and back out again part one

it started one nice day that turned into the worst day of mine and my six year old daughter kiras life we got up at six to start are day getting kira ready for school me getting ready to take my diabetic shot her eating breakfast my husband says to me can u find my clothes i want to take a shower i say to him sorry but i can’t getting ready to take my shot and getting kira ready for school so he goes back and finds is own stuff for the shower it is about 6 : 30 now and he starts to go into the bathroom to take his shower and we joke with him on that cause he is bipolar and his med has stopped working and he hates showers he fears them but if i ask him to take one he will and i did the a few days before this so i just thought he was doing what i asked him to do but i was wrong a few seconds after we were just joking  we hear a big pop it sounded like a light blab busting i say what was that are u ok and he didn’t say anything so i say hun are u ok he still didn’t say any thing so i get up and start to go check on him and kira fallows me i open the door to the bathroom and he is in there with blood all over his neck , chest  blood comeing out his nose i get down on my knees and get a towel to try and help him talking to him hun what happend please talk to me his eyes are closed i think i got to get 911 and kira is crying i go to get the phone and it is not working yet again mental note change phone provider this is gone to far with my phone out again . looking around i say kira wheres my cell phone angry and upset at the things happening right then so find the cell and call 911 am talking to her telling her i don’t know what has happened but he is covered in blood run back to him his head must have lay-ed differently from what it was when i moved his head looking to help him his teeth are also covered in blood but i see the hole in his head look around and now see the gun in the shower near him as well and i scream in the 911 lady’s ear he shot himself in the head oh god he shot himself in head she tries to clam me down to talk to me and i  think he is most likely dead so i say to the 911 lady i got to get my daughter out of here she is still crying she says ok but stay on the phone with me till the ambulance comes i say ok ok we go to the next doors home and wait i’m thinking got to call friends family oh god will we lose our home and pets oh god what am i going to do without him how could he do this to us and why why also with kira here i find out when they get there that he is not dead false hope for both of us cause when i get to the hospital we find out he is only alive because of life support so friends and me know he would not want life support try and get it taken off his family is all passed away so they tell me i can’t cause u have to have a test done on him before they can do that u have to give him a test to see if he is brain dead or not if so they can take him off life support but other wise not at lest 24 hours so we say give him the test and they did it took all day most of the night to do this test and he was brain dead so i lost my husband i a mere moments in time that day in shock worry for my future and kiras  but with meany prayers and help from the lord through our church my family that i have reconnected with after so meany years of not being near them and strangers helping us through the lord we got to keep our home and pets we will be ok but in the first few weeks to a few month after ghostly things happened to us and in part 2 i will tell u the rest of the story on what ghostly things happened to me kira and my family .

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